Monday, November 23, 2009

Maaring mag-hilom ang mga sugat sa pamamagitan ng oras. Ngunit sa pamamagitan ng ano maaring mag-hilom ang mismong oras?

Yan ang unang tanong na nabuo ng isip ko habang tuloy pa rin sa pag-karipas ng takbo ang oras. Habang ako, mahuhuli na sa trabaho, nangangamote, sa nakatigil na jeep na sinasakyan. Pangkaraniwan na Lunes ng umaga, inaasahan ko ang dagsa ng mga taong papasok sa trabaho. Mahigit sampung minuto na ang nakalipas, at tila isang tagpo sa pambatang palabas tuwing Linggo ng umaga, ang isang pagaspas ng hangin na may dala-dalang nagiisang dahon, ang dumaan paikot sa harap ko, kasabay ang katahimikan at mistulang pagtigil ng mundo sa loob ng tatlong segundo. At ayun, nagiisa pa rin akong pasahero sa jeep.

Nitong mga nakaraang buwan, maraming nangyari. Nandyan ang mga sunod-sunod na bagyo, kasunod ang baha, bagyo uli, isama mo na ang laban ni Pacquiao at Cotto, pati ang kaarawan ko. Basta lahat! At sa dami ng mga nangyari, sumunod ang mga tanong sa isip ko. Bakit nagmamadali ang mga tao? Para saan ang pinaglalaban ng mga tao? At ano ang pinaglalaban ng mga tao?

Sa mga nagdaan, hindi ko maikakaila ang mga sugat na natamo ko. Nahihirapan akong takpan ito sa pamamagitan ng mga ngiti sa mukha ko. Hindi ako malakas tulad ng iniisip mo.

Manong bayad po!

Parang walang patutunguhan ang mga naiisip ko ah?! Tae. Kaya ayokong nababakante. Pero wala rin akong nagawa, masakit man sa kalooban ko, nahuli pa rin ako sa trabaho ng siyam na minuto. Dahilan para bumalik na naman ang tanong ko kanina.. Papasimplehin ko ito ngayon..

May gamot ba sa oras?

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Siberian Cat

Every so often I go out for a stroll after lunch. This time, on my way back to work earlier, I came across this new pet shop in parksquare. This white-gray furred, silver-eyed cat on the window caught my attention. I decided to take a closer look. Since it seems like I’m inside my own world when I’m wearing my earphones for music, sight will be my primary sense. I noticed the person beside me pointing finger at the cat. As I looked towards her, I realized she’s talking to me. So I removed my earphones and started listening to her. She’s talking about the comparison between cats and dogs, and how she loves cats for the reason she described as, “hindi masyadong alagain”. I smiled and agreed. The conversation goes on..

While I’m in the middle of reading between gestures, I heard her say the term, “pang-kama”. Being the “grin-minded” I am, I paid more attention to what her saying. Just to be clear. The next she told me, “Maganda talaga siya “pang-kama” lalo na kapag kasabay mong matulog. Hindi katulad ng aso na kapag nag “se-s*x” kayo ng boyfriend mo, eh mangugulit pa yan!” That somehow scared me off. At first I thought of her as plain “tactless”. Then after a moment she once more mentioned the “s” word. My senses are now disrupted. Does this woman thinks I’m gay just like what most of people thought of me at first sight? Is she a hooker? Or, well, just another stranger you see everyday on the streets? I collected my self and said, “Sana humarap ung pusa. Gusto ko kasi makita kung magkaiba ung kulay ng dalawang mata nya e.” She didn’t respond. I didn’t bother to look at her for her reaction, scared thinking that the look in my eyes might betray and expose my thoughts. Then I remembered about the time. I think I only have four minutes. So I just made a final look at the cat, last glace at her, smiled (she smiled back), one step back, a partial wave, then I turned around to my left. No looking back, still confused, I smiled to myself while walking, I put both of my earphones back. ^^

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Blue and Yellow

I believe everything in this world is connected to each other. And I also believe that there’s always a reason for everything that happens. And sometimes, moments in your life come when you least expect it. Thinking of that, I took pictures of signage, bulletins, and even news I see in the streets, malls, and even in bathrooms, and upload it to the photo album I created in “facebook” named "I saw the sign". Some pictures are grabbed from other profiles, or anywhere that has to be related to the albums theme. It features irony, wrong grammar, wrong spelling, or something that can be hilarious or serious as compared to where it was placed, or anything that might have any connection to what’s happening (current events) or what I’m doing at the moment. I also do this when I need to think out-of-the-box. Basically, I just take a look around for signs.

Sometime in my past relationships, I felt so demanding, and wanted my partner to do this or that, be like this or that. I always looked for something. Then I heard the song “Blue and Yellow” from the (emo) band, “The Used”. The song goes, “well you’ll never gonna find it if you’re looking for it, won’t come your way”. I thought to myself, “can I answer that song with “papa don’t preach” of “Madonna”? Haha! Oh well, that song really taught me something.

The other morning, which I was really having a very rough one, I go to work, just like the usual. I put on my headset, connected it to my phone, and played a random mp3. Things got interesting when a song “Here we go again” by “Paramore” played. It just seemed like someone’s telling me something or trying to comfort me. Anyway, I ignored that thought and continue walking towards the jeep terminal. As I stepped in the jeep, my phone shuts down (battery problem). So I turned it on again and played the mp3 once more. While waiting for the random song, I looked and noticed the woman in front of me, and oh, am I in heaven? How could it be that an “angel” simply sits in front of me on a typical Thursday morning, in a typical place, and on a typical means of transportation in the Philippines?… Snap!! I got back to reality. But still, I couldn’t just ignore the beauty in front of me. The next thing that I noticed really got my attention. She’s wearing a “blue” sleeveless vest on top of a “yellow” tube (or spaghetti type) shirt. O… M… G!!! That’s also the time my phone played a song, and guess what, it’s “Blue and Yellow”…

Is this a dream?
Why can’t I take my eyes off her?...

I can feel my heart beats faster…

And faster..
... Geez, I think she just caught me staring at her..

Then my brain dominates over the situation. It said, “ Yeah right! You have just experienced one of the million coincidences that could happen! Remember, the whole world is a big coincidence”. Ok fine!

Suplado mode…

Yet once more, I stared, and got caught..

Oh well, I’ll just savor the moment. Now I’m caught between the thought of getting off the vehicle along with her and ask for her name, or, staying since I will be late for work. Then the jeep driver asked us (the passengers) to transfer into another jeep during the traffic stop sign for some reason (I don’t know)… And I got to sit beside her this time… As I’m guessing what perfume she’s wearing, I focused my peripheral vision towards her direction. I got so close to an “angel”, as her arms are almost on my back while she holds on to the window. Minutes later, she got off in front of PLDT in Greenbelt. Once again, my brain dominates. I did not follow her. My heart just gave off one big pump before going back to normal. But that one pump, threw a thousand questions for my brain to answer. But only one really pierced through:

“Will I ever see her again?”

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Sunday, August 9, 2009

I suppose.. (Answer to my friends so called "Psychology questions")

The other night at around 8pm, I got home from work. Just before I eat dinner, 2 of my friends picked me up to a friends son's birthday party (2 years old I think), which I totally forgot we planned to. Wearing only my shorts and slippers, I changed for an appropriate shirt for the weather (may bagyo daw kasi), grabbed my umbrella, and off we go.

At the party, almost everyone of the "tropa" came, including "her" (I'll be using this, and "she", or "we" as a reference). "She", this "tropa girl" that I have a slight crush on to, ever since way back (I'm sooooo dead if she's reading this). I guess it's safe to say that we already go out once.. err.. twice... Alright it's thrice already!! But for me, i'ts just a "friendly date", I suppose. I just feel comfortable going out with her, watching movies, food trip, or do whatever what we thought of doing so. And that's it! Isa pa, kasama rin yan sa mga rules ko sa sarili: "Ang tropa, tropa!", in short, "hindi katalo". Nothing more I think. So alam nyo na!? So tigilan na ang mga somewhat "psychology questions" okei!? Although masaya rin, hehe.

Going back to the party the other night, "we" happened to share the same table together and we sat beside each other. It's a table for 10 persons I think. I was seated on "her" right, and there is this guy who sat on her left (We don't know him), and tries to flirt and hit on her every now and then. Everyone else of the tropa noticed it to. "She" always tries to ignore him by turning, and talking to me instead. Two of my friends signals that I should make "akbay" to her in an unnoticed manner. Ung tamang pasimpleng akbay ng mga torpe ba! But I just gave them a smile, and thought to myself that I should do this if the situation gets more serious. Everytime I noticed she couldn't turn to me, take her by the hand and ask her set of questions I normally ask to people, my own "psychology questions". But for "her", I made it in a form of a game. It's fun and she's consistent from the first time we did this before.

Then came the video-oke "trip". I really don't sing in karaokes, but i'm surprised myself how I got the high notes of "Fra Lippo Lippi's", "Light and Shade". And I believe I became an instant "video-oke king" that night. My other friend says "she" is "kinikilig" while I was singging, and every other moment I reach my hand on her face and give her the mic to let her sing. I now saw the other guy leaves. "Ayos Elmo!" says my other tropa, "pogi points!", and gave me an "ok sign". Anyway, nageenjoy lang naman kame. Wala rin naman ako balak magpapogi, so, sakto lang.

At about 3am, it seems to me that i'll be having trouble getting home this late, but I gave my "exit signal" to my friends anyway. Since most of them are drunk already, they agreed they'll be leaving with me, and we also have to ride "her" home. If I hadn't gone to this party, i'm probably be sleeping at home and had my alarm clock set at 6am for work. But this time they told me they will be sleeping over at "her" place, since i'ts close to the venue. And I think i'ts a good idea for me too so i said, "ok tara!".

At 3:32am, found myself sitting still on the living room, tired, and sleepy. I looked over to my "1 barred cellphone", and hell! I remembered "may pasok pa ako mamaya!". So I set it at 5:30am alarm and turned it off to save battery. "She" prepares her bedroom for the four of us. When "she" invited us in her bedroom, I directly go (sleep fast buddy! - true lies) and positioned myself on the sleeping mattress, for two persons, she set up on the floor, close to the bed (because the bed can only accommodate 2 persons). I made sure there's enough place for the other person who will sleep next me. I then hear "her" say while already sitting beside me, "dito na lang ako sa tabi ni elmo!". I threw a joke, "sabihin mo kapag uutot ka ha!". Pissed off, she slapped my left leg, smiling, "Kapal mo!". The tropa laughs.

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..zzzZZZzzzZZzz..
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5:30am.. "Fushigi Yuugi" ending theme plays....

ODK! It's my cellphone alarm tone! I woke up one of my friend sleeping on the bed and told him I need to go home and prepare for work. Having no choice, he escorted me to the door and I told him, "Hindi ko na "siya" ginising ha! Pakisabi na lang sa kanila mamaya.". He said, "Sige.", as I stepped out the door. While riding on the jeepney, having only about an hour and a half sleep, I had this crazy thought, "Hhhmmm.. If someone asked me if I slept with "her", I can give them a safe answer, "yes", right?!" Haha! Technically speaking, tama naman un diba?! Kamote mode na naman si elmo!! Whatever!^^

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

the best things in life are "guilt free"!

after i punched out from work in our megamall branch, i went out for a little stroll. i first visited this boutique, btw which is one of my favorite, and planned to buy the "pink shoes" i saw from their other branch. after about 30 minutes of fitting, thinking, and asking the "promodizer" for a change of stock every time i see a minor defect, i decided to buy the shoes. holding the box, i looked around and saw this bag. i liked the the style but, judging from the material used, i thought it won't be so durable. so i asked the sales lady;

"ate excuse me, ano sa tingin mo, tastasin ba to'?" (while i was pointing to the inner lining)
she took the item from me, looked at it, and said;

"medyo sir, kasi...", wala na ako maintindihan sa sinasabi nya nung mapatingin ako sa super bebe na dumaan sa harap namen.. after five seconds, my "thought bubble" snapped!.. balik tayo kay ate sales lady..

"ah ganon poh ba? so ano sa tingin mo?", i asked.
"kayo sir..", she replied immediately.

not quite satisfied with her answer, i walked towards to the counter carrying the shoes with the bag anyway. keeping the thought of "i need a bag right now" winning the battles in my head. after a short pause, a little sigh, i now turn to the cashier, smiled and said hello. i handed over the items. i saw her remove the security pin (of the items) and punched it in. i heard two "beeps", but when i looked at the total amount, it was only for the shoes. quite knowing whats happening, i keep my mouth shut, and just pulled an amount of money from my wallet based on the total price i saw. i handed over the money. while repeatedly tapping the loyalty card at the desk, waiting for her to request for it (the card), i also, "partially", wait for her or her checker to mention that the amount of the bag amounted P0.00 instead of P599.75 after reading the barcode. a little bit of smile zipped out from me as i struggle to still keep myself from saying anything. anything!! fingers crossed, she now gave me the ("paid") items (haha), my loyalty card, and my change (ayos ah!), then said, "thank you sir!". when i heard that from her, i wanted to release another copied line from a radio jock, "nnnoooo, thank youuuuuu..", but of course i managed not to say so. instead i gave her a "sweet smile" (yung tamang pa-cute ba!). still not saying anything (malapit na mapanis laway ko. eeww.), a relaxed walk while still looking around, a poker face, i finally collected my "exit momentum".

out the doorway.

walked away from the store..

a little bit more...

...

then i found myself with a big smile, wanting to laugh my heart out while walking quite fast (still pressured?). i went to the department store first to buy shoe padding, and something funny happened there, quite "parental guidance", but maybe i'll tell you about that later. then i ride the fx going home. at home i told my older, and my younger sister who worked before for a competitor of the crime scene, (cough!), i mean the boutique, of what happened, and how i got the bag for free. but i got reactions such as;

"hoy badong kawawa naman un kahera, masho-short un!"

"naku hayaan mo na, kasalanan nya un!"

so i tried to explain to them my theory, based from what i know, that the cashier won't be charged. but just in case i'm wrong, i promised them, and myself, that i'll make a "notary to the public" through blog, just to lessen the guilt (hehe).

no i won't go back there and pay for it.^^

in my head, it's not my fault that the bar code has no amount, but i don't see any reasons i should be proud of what i did (of not saying there's something wrong to cashier).

but hey! i wonder why am i still smiling here at the train while writing this? hhhmmm.. looking at the heading of the newspaper here, let me ask, for you, the best things in life are..........?


chill. (^^,)

Saturday, July 11, 2009

hhhmm... now what?...

i promised myself that i won't blog until i have a new work (how irrational of me).. we'll now that i have one again, after being a bummer for 5 days, ano na? alam! ^^

Saturday, April 25, 2009

ayun! txbk..

gcng pa rn!

after the gig earlier, dpt ngaun on the way na kame ng mga offcem8s q to pinatubo!(para magpalunod sa lahar!!lol), para wla lng, hike-hike lng up to the crater and back.. d q pa natry yata un e.. d sana aq matutulog at direstso lakwatsa ng bonggang bongga! e kaso basa dw un mga trail e.. delikado dw para s mga hikers.. re-scheduled yta to nxt wik.. ayan sa sobrang lakas q sa ulan, umulan ng bonggang bongga, at umabot s hiking site!! e kaso sa nxt wik rn na rescheduled un swimming namin ng mga computer shop buddies q. ginamit kc un isa sa dalawang van n dpt gagamitin namen. bahala na si batman! kung san mas masaya n lng uli!! ^^

un gig naman kanina, i may say disapointed aq. since college, sa first band q, gs2ng gs2 n kasi namen tumugtog dun since maraming mga sumikat na banda na tumugtog at nadiscover dun.. at maganda daw dun! kaso ngaun, pagkatapos ng tugtog, ok lng, e kaso ang sagwa ng sound system e. un lng ang dahilan q, pero un na rin ang lhat ng magiging dahilan q rin kung baket ayw q na rin cgro tumugtog dun. kung discovery lng dn ang paguusapan ok lng cgro na hnd kame, ksi tumutugtog kame(or aq) dahil sa music, music, at music. expression through music. ngaun, hnd q naman naenjoy music dun kc sagwa ng sound system e. 1sang medyo technical musician term e un monitor, wala silang monitor para sa tumutugtog! kaya wala kameng marinig sa ginagawa namen! amf! (monitor ang twg dun speaker sa "harap" "stage" na "nakaharap" sa "stage", para marinig ng musician or singer un music nila, para matimpla nila kung ok na o hnd pa). or cge, i'll take back some, tugtugtog uli me dun, pero d na siguro me mageexpect ng sobra. tamang tugtog/hangout-hangout lng.. *wink*

pero overall, masaya naman ang gig, c/o 8daysaweekproduction, naks! maayos ang mga lineup ng banda, at eto pa, hiniram ng bahista ng prophets of memories ang bass guitar q!(fans nila aq e) but wait, there's more!!! next gig! tutugtog na uli sila, ehem, ayw q sabihin kung sino! wwweeeeeeeeeee!! makikita q na rin siguro kung ano pinagkaiba ng tugtog namin since nung binuo namin 2ng band kelan lng... sila kasi un banda na natandaan q since nung unang gig q sa band q ngaun, na pwde q gamitin as basis ng progress..

abangan!^^

oo nga pala, ngaun q lng din gnwa 2, 2 gigs in one week! ayos! mukhang mauubos agad ang leave q sa opis kung ganito ng ganito. pero may plan na me kung pano mag-adjust..

abangan! uli!^^

rock hard! (8days term)