Divine Tuesnight..

It’s almost every Tuesday that I go to church, Greenbelt in particular, after work. And normally I would see few people, and that would be the best time to make “tambay” in church and make “katwiran” (I learned this from my college friend) to Him, which is the way I mostly talk to the Above, if there is. Other Tuesdays, they have charismatic gatherings, where once I found my self singing along. And last Tuesday, December 8, I was surprised when I saw many people, and there was a mass held. Having no choice, I just stayed and attended it. As soon as I got home, I asked my mom and my older sister what’s up and why there a lot of people in church that night. Because I normally see that kind of crowd, let’s face it, only during the first up to the third mass of “Simbang Gabi” and the other was “Misa de Gallo”, and the mass before New Year. Since I’ve been busy recently (naks! Parang artista ah!), I’m somehow outdated with the news and current events. Moreover, I sometimes actually forget what day it was. I didn’t know it was “Feast of the Immaculate Concepcion” that night until my sister told me about it.

Moving on, last night, Tuesday, after work, I found my self again walking towards greenbelt church, and thought it was a good time for a quiet moment. Since it’s a sort of a long walk, I put on my earphones from my phone, turned on the radio, and listen to “The BrewRATS”, a radio show composed of DJ Angel, DJ Tado, and DJ Ramon. I love listening to these guys especially when I heard that they also idolize “King DJ Logan (KDL)”, which is also one of my favorite radio jocks. When I reached the church, to my surprise, it’s as if I’m in the same scenario as last week, with almost the same number of crowd..

“Ano na naman to’!?”

I just stood at the same ground where I ask my self that question. Listening to “Our Father”, I removed my left earphone and retain the right to simultaneously listen to the BrewRATS where they have, “bring-a-friend-tuesnight”, and they have a priest guest, Father Francis (I didn’t get his last name), and their topic is about Christmas, and all. I noticed that he was cool and delivers good humor while conveying good information about the Christian life, particularly during Christmas. I’m learning a lot.

Benjie Mode:
(Benjie is an old officemate who knows a lot, and talks a lot at the same time. ^^)

“Did you know that Christ was born on 6 B.C.?”

I bet you didn’t.

Meanwhile, I heard the voice of the Greenbelt Parish Priest through the church’s speakers, and noticed his American accent. Intrigued, I moved closer to the church to take a closer look. That is the time he was just giving the final Blessing. Afterwards, he mentioned about the book “365 Days with the Lord”. I learned that he was a Filipino the time he spoke tagalog and cracked a joke about the book.

“Ayos ah! Ang cool ng mga Pari ngayon!”

By the time most of the people left, I entered the church and planned to buy the book and have it signed by him, the cool priest. Since couples of persons were lined up for the book, I decided to sit and wait. Still having my right earphone on, I continued listening to the radio. When I noticed the people cleared up and saw the priest is still there helping to distribute the books, I approached his assistant for one copy of the book, paid for it, and asks if I can have it signed by the priest, he said, “Opo, pwede po!”.

“Ayos!”

By that time I was already beside one woman standing next to the priest, but she was busy talking to the other woman on my back, so I got the chance to make an eye contact with the priest..

“Excuse me Father, pwedeng..”

Then I gave him the book along with my pen. He said, “Sure!”. While he’s writing on the book I mentioned my first name and realized he do not usually write names, maybe because he’s not used to signing books, but he wrote it anyway. Then the woman between me and the priest asked if she can, borrow my pen, and have her book signed just like mine, so I said, “Sure!”. After that, I asked for the priests’ name while reaching for his hand and placed it to my forehead. “It’s Father Mario. God bless.” Then I thank him.

As usual, I make “tambay” in the church for a while. Still listening to the radio, after about 5 minutes of browsing in my new book, I put it inside my bag and decided to go to Greenbelt Park to see the water fountain. I love fountains! In the pathway of the church, I turned around to my right, faced the altar, and gave off a sign of the cross. When I opened my eyes, I noticed in my peripheral vision that a woman on my right was looking at me. I did not mind her, and instead I turned around to my left. After a few steps, I took a peek at her to my left, and saw her once again looked at me. She is not the girl with the mark on her forehead (maybe I’ll tell you about that story some other time). I continued walking and sat beside the fountain in greenbelt. It’s about a few minutes before ten, and the show it about to end (the BrewRATS). I heard that they’re now accepting phone calls for any questions to their guest, Father Francis. Looking at my book I formed a question. Knowing I don’t have enough load for a call, I just texted them. By the time I sent my message they have just took a caller. Few minutes after the caller, I send the same message again. A moment later, I heard DJ Angel talking to the priest, “Father from the text line, Minsan may Isang Kamote is asking, where is the original Bible?”. Father Francis answered in details and said it was in the Vatican City, split up. After that, they asked the priest for a parting message, and gave their closing remarks.

Me, running low on battery, still managed to switch to mp3 mode on my phone, once again passed by the church going to the jeep terminal. That’s the only time I knew why there are a lot of people in church that night..

“I think I have just attended the first mass of “Simbang Gabi” this year.”

Sobrang lapit na pala ng Pasko, hindi ko pa alam.

Merry Christmas everyone! ^^

- minsanmayisangkamote

Go ahead punk! Make my day..

Aside from having a strong “chamba”, and being lucky on the things I buy or purchase. And maybe aside from the good things I haven’t discovered of myself yet. I believe I have an eye for details because of, how do I call it, uuuhhmmm, let’s just say, good line or angle of sight, or in some occasions, awkward line of sight. To elaborate, based on a study (which I only made up), the normal or average of the worlds population, when standing up, have their eyeballs normally looking forward, straight, or at zero degrees. Me, my eyeballs would, most of the time, looking forty five degrees downward. Now, standing five feet and six inches tall, I find myself always in an awkward situation when talking to other people, especially girls, given that the average height of a Filipino woman is five feet, two inches tall. So just imagine which body part would I be normally looking at when talking to a woman. This happened many, many, how can I say it, many times.

There is this one time in my previous work; I’m talking to our receptionist and one of our consultants. This consultant was wearing “plunging neck line” that time. And pardon me, this is a compliment, she has a nice pair of, let’s replace the word and tag it, “shoes”. So being me, I didn’t realize I’m already looking directly at her “shoes”, while discussing something about work. In the middle of it, our receptionist playfully bumps me and said, “hoy san ka nakatingin!?”. Good thing the consultant just smiled, didn't mind it, and told us she’s used to that kind of situation given the size of her “shoes”. But I still apologized and said that I don’t mean to be looking at her “shoes”. Feeling that the apology isn’t enough, I told them facts on how I look at things literally, while her ending up telling us more stories, for example, in a meeting with men clients looking at her “shoes” intentionally.

This morning while riding on a jeep, and about to get stranded on a re-route in Makati Avenue (BTW, what’s the event in Makati today?), a gorgeous lady steps on. She is wearing a gray corporate blouse on top, a skirt (extra short), and black stockings, which I thought to be a BDO (Banco de Oro) uniform. She happens to sit “in front” of me and I “immediately saw” her, wait for it, brown eyes. Hey I know what you’re thinking!! We’ll get to that.. Now going back to the story, I’m curious if her eyes were real or she’s just wearing contact lens. Anyway, I constantly look at her eyes every time she pass my sight.

As most of the passengers dropped off at Greenbelt, people left in the vehicle can now be more at ease, including me and, ehem, the skirt girl “in front” of me. Having told you about my angle of sight earlier, it is now mixed with my “chamba”, when the driver had a “semi-rough break” of the vehicle, causing us to “semi-buckle up”. With that, just imagine how a woman in a mini skirt would react in that situation. But I saw nothing because of the lighting condition inside the vehicle. Being polite, I prevented of how things would go worse (or better in some other state of mind), by sitting sideward, and moving a bit backward. But as my “chamba” waves his magic wand onto me.. There it was! ♪ Hallelujah! ♫ The sunlight coming from my left, goes straight under her skirt! I said to my self, “I think I just saw her undies!”. White. But I don’t mind. Seconds later it happened again. That’s the time I realized it is “panty hose” she’s wearing not just stockings. But there’s more. Even with her black panty hose, through right amount and angle of light bestowed upon me ♪ Hallelujah! ♫, I still happen to notice the red star design on her undies! I can even tell which cheek it is on! (hardcore na to’!).

Mixed emotion, I don’t know if I should be disgust of myself, or just enjoy the moment. As it happened a few more times, I thought to myself that I ought to be doing something already, like telling her what I just noticed. And that’s the case; Should I be telling her? Again I’m confused. This always happens..

But the occurring things between me and the opposite sex is a different story.

Maaring mag-hilom ang mga sugat sa pamamagitan ng oras. Ngunit sa pamamagitan ng ano maaring mag-hilom ang mismong oras?

Yan ang unang tanong na nabuo ng isip ko habang tuloy pa rin sa pag-karipas ng takbo ang oras. Habang ako, mahuhuli na sa trabaho, nangangamote, sa nakatigil na jeep na sinasakyan. Pangkaraniwan na Lunes ng umaga, inaasahan ko ang dagsa ng mga taong papasok sa trabaho. Mahigit sampung minuto na ang nakalipas, at tila isang tagpo sa pambatang palabas tuwing Linggo ng umaga, ang isang pagaspas ng hangin na may dala-dalang nagiisang dahon, ang dumaan paikot sa harap ko, kasabay ang katahimikan at mistulang pagtigil ng mundo sa loob ng tatlong segundo. At ayun, nagiisa pa rin akong pasahero sa jeep.

Nitong mga nakaraang buwan, maraming nangyari. Nandyan ang mga sunod-sunod na bagyo, kasunod ang baha, bagyo uli, isama mo na ang laban ni Pacquiao at Cotto, pati ang kaarawan ko. Basta lahat! At sa dami ng mga nangyari, sumunod ang mga tanong sa isip ko. Bakit nagmamadali ang mga tao? Para saan ang pinaglalaban ng mga tao? At ano ang pinaglalaban ng mga tao?

Sa mga nagdaan, hindi ko maikakaila ang mga sugat na natamo ko. Nahihirapan akong takpan ito sa pamamagitan ng mga ngiti sa mukha ko. Hindi ako malakas tulad ng iniisip mo.

“Manong bayad po!”

Parang walang patutunguhan ang mga naiisip ko ah?! Tae. Kaya ayokong nababakante. Pero wala rin akong nagawa, masakit man sa kalooban ko, nahuli pa rin ako sa trabaho ng siyam na minuto. Dahilan para bumalik na naman ang tanong ko kanina.. Papasimplehin ko ito ngayon..

May gamot ba sa oras?

Siberian Cat

Every so often I go out for a stroll after lunch. This time, on my way back to work earlier, I came across this new pet shop in parksquare. This white-gray furred, silver-eyed cat on the window caught my attention. I decided to take a closer look. Since it seems like I’m inside my own world when I’m wearing my earphones for music, sight will be my primary sense. I noticed the person beside me pointing finger at the cat. As I looked towards her, I realized she’s talking to me. So I removed my earphones and started listening to her. She’s talking about the comparison between cats and dogs, and how she loves cats for the reason she described as, “hindi masyadong alagain”. I smiled and agreed. The conversation goes on..

While I’m in the middle of reading between gestures, I heard her say the term, “pang-kama”. Being the “grin-minded” I am, I paid more attention to what her saying. Just to be clear. The next she told me, “Maganda talaga siya “pang-kama” lalo na kapag kasabay mong matulog. Hindi katulad ng aso na kapag nag “se-s*x” kayo ng boyfriend mo, eh mangugulit pa yan!” That somehow scared me off. At first I thought of her as plain “tactless”. Then after a moment she once more mentioned the “s” word. My senses are now disrupted. Does this woman thinks I’m gay just like what most of people thought of me at first sight? Is she a hooker? Or, well, just another stranger you see everyday on the streets? I collected my self and said, “Sana humarap ung pusa. Gusto ko kasi makita kung magkaiba ung kulay ng dalawang mata nya e.” She didn’t respond. I didn’t bother to look at her for her reaction, scared thinking that the look in my eyes might betray and expose my thoughts. Then I remembered about the time. I think I only have four minutes. So I just made a final look at the cat, last glace at her, smiled (she smiled back), one step back, a partial wave, then I turned around to my left. No looking back, still confused, I smiled to myself while walking, I put both of my earphones back. ^^

Blue and Yellow

I believe everything in this world is connected to each other. And I also believe that there’s always a reason for everything that happens. And sometimes, moments in your life come when you least expect it. Thinking of that, I took pictures of signage, bulletins, and even news I see in the streets, malls, and even in bathrooms, and upload it to the photo album I created in “facebook” named "I saw the sign". Some pictures are grabbed from other profiles, or anywhere that has to be related to the albums theme. It features irony, wrong grammar, wrong spelling, or something that can be hilarious or serious as compared to where it was placed, or anything that might have any connection to what’s happening (current events) or what I’m doing at the moment. I also do this when I need to think out-of-the-box. Basically, I just take a look around for signs.

Sometime in my past relationships, I felt so demanding, and wanted my partner to do this or that, be like this or that. I always looked for something. Then I heard the song “Blue and Yellow” from the (emo) band, “The Used”. The song goes, “well you’ll never gonna find it if you’re looking for it, won’t come your way”. I thought to myself, “can I answer that song with “papa don’t preach” of “Madonna”? Haha! Oh well, that song really taught me something.

The other morning, which I was really having a very rough one, I go to work, just like the usual. I put on my headset, connected it to my phone, and played a random mp3. Things got interesting when a song “Here we go again” by “Paramore” played. It just seemed like someone’s telling me something or trying to comfort me. Anyway, I ignored that thought and continue walking towards the jeep terminal. As I stepped in the jeep, my phone shuts down (battery problem). So I turned it on again and played the mp3 once more. While waiting for the random song, I looked and noticed the woman in front of me, and oh, am I in heaven? How could it be that an “angel” simply sits in front of me on a typical Thursday morning, in a typical place, and on a typical means of transportation in the Philippines?… Snap!! I got back to reality. But still, I couldn’t just ignore the beauty in front of me. The next thing that I noticed really got my attention. She’s wearing a “blue” sleeveless vest on top of a “yellow” tube (or spaghetti type) shirt. O… M… G!!! That’s also the time my phone played a song, and guess what, it’s “Blue and Yellow”…

Is this a dream?
Why can’t I take my eyes off her?...
…
I can feel my heart beats faster…
…
And faster..
... Geez, I think she just caught me staring at her..

Then my brain dominates over the situation. It said, “ Yeah right! You have just experienced one of the million coincidences that could happen! Remember, the whole world is a big coincidence”. Ok fine!

Suplado mode…

Yet once more, I stared, and got caught..

Oh well, I’ll just savor the moment. Now I’m caught between the thought of getting off the vehicle along with her and ask for her name, or, staying since I will be late for work. Then the jeep driver asked us (the passengers) to transfer into another jeep during the traffic stop sign for some reason (I don’t know)… And I got to sit beside her this time… As I’m guessing what perfume she’s wearing, I focused my peripheral vision towards her direction. I got so close to an “angel”, as her arms are almost on my back while she holds on to the window. Minutes later, she got off in front of PLDT in Greenbelt. Once again, my brain dominates. I did not follow her. My heart just gave off one big pump before going back to normal. But that one pump, threw a thousand questions for my brain to answer. But only one really pierced through:

“Will I ever see her again?”

..

I suppose.. (Answer to my friends so called "Psychology questions")

The other night at around 8pm, I got home from work. Just before I eat dinner, 2 of my friends picked me up to a friends son's birthday party (2 years old I think), which I totally forgot we planned to. Wearing only my shorts and slippers, I changed for an appropriate shirt for the weather (may bagyo daw kasi), grabbed my umbrella, and off we go.

At the party, almost everyone of the "tropa" came, including "her" (I'll be using this, and "she", or "we" as a reference). "She", this "tropa girl" that I have a slight crush on to, ever since way back (I'm sooooo dead if she's reading this). I guess it's safe to say that we already go out once.. err.. twice... Alright it's thrice already!! But for me, i'ts just a "friendly date", I suppose. I just feel comfortable going out with her, watching movies, food trip, or do whatever what we thought of doing so. And that's it! Isa pa, kasama rin yan sa mga rules ko sa sarili: "Ang tropa, tropa!", in short, "hindi katalo". Nothing more I think. So alam nyo na!? So tigilan na ang mga somewhat "psychology questions" okei!? Although masaya rin, hehe.

Going back to the party the other night, "we" happened to share the same table together and we sat beside each other. It's a table for 10 persons I think. I was seated on "her" right, and there is this guy who sat on her left (We don't know him), and tries to flirt and hit on her every now and then. Everyone else of the tropa noticed it to. "She" always tries to ignore him by turning, and talking to me instead. Two of my friends signals that I should make "akbay" to her in an unnoticed manner. Ung tamang pasimpleng akbay ng mga torpe ba! But I just gave them a smile, and thought to myself that I should do this if the situation gets more serious. Everytime I noticed she couldn't turn to me, take her by the hand and ask her set of questions I normally ask to people, my own "psychology questions". But for "her", I made it in a form of a game. It's fun and she's consistent from the first time we did this before.

Then came the video-oke "trip". I really don't sing in karaokes, but i'm surprised myself how I got the high notes of "Fra Lippo Lippi's", "Light and Shade". And I believe I became an instant "video-oke king" that night. My other friend says "she" is "kinikilig" while I was singging, and every other moment I reach my hand on her face and give her the mic to let her sing. I now saw the other guy leaves. "Ayos Elmo!" says my other tropa, "pogi points!", and gave me an "ok sign". Anyway, nageenjoy lang naman kame. Wala rin naman ako balak magpapogi, so, sakto lang.

At about 3am, it seems to me that i'll be having trouble getting home this late, but I gave my "exit signal" to my friends anyway. Since most of them are drunk already, they agreed they'll be leaving with me, and we also have to ride "her" home. If I hadn't gone to this party, i'm probably be sleeping at home and had my alarm clock set at 6am for work. But this time they told me they will be sleeping over at "her" place, since i'ts close to the venue. And I think i'ts a good idea for me too so i said, "ok tara!".

At 3:32am, found myself sitting still on the living room, tired, and sleepy. I looked over to my "1 barred cellphone", and hell! I remembered "may pasok pa ako mamaya!". So I set it at 5:30am alarm and turned it off to save battery. "She" prepares her bedroom for the four of us. When "she" invited us in her bedroom, I directly go (sleep fast buddy! - true lies) and positioned myself on the sleeping mattress, for two persons, she set up on the floor, close to the bed (because the bed can only accommodate 2 persons). I made sure there's enough place for the other person who will sleep next me. I then hear "her" say while already sitting beside me, "dito na lang ako sa tabi ni elmo!". I threw a joke, "sabihin mo kapag uutot ka ha!". Pissed off, she slapped my left leg, smiling, "Kapal mo!". The tropa laughs.

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5:30am.. "Fushigi Yuugi" ending theme plays....

ODK! It's my cellphone alarm tone! I woke up one of my friend sleeping on the bed and told him I need to go home and prepare for work. Having no choice, he escorted me to the door and I told him, "Hindi ko na "siya" ginising ha! Pakisabi na lang sa kanila mamaya.". He said, "Sige.", as I stepped out the door. While riding on the jeepney, having only about an hour and a half sleep, I had this crazy thought, "Hhhmmm.. If someone asked me if I slept with "her", I can give them a safe answer, "yes", right?!" Haha! Technically speaking, tama naman un diba?! Kamote mode na naman si elmo!! Whatever!^^

the best things in life are "guilt free"!

after i punched out from work in our megamall branch, i went out for a little stroll. i first visited this boutique, btw which is one of my favorite, and planned to buy the "pink shoes" i saw from their other branch. after about 30 minutes of fitting, thinking, and asking the "promodizer" for a change of stock every time i see a minor defect, i decided to buy the shoes. holding the box, i looked around and saw this bag. i liked the the style but, judging from the material used, i thought it won't be so durable. so i asked the sales lady;

"ate excuse me, ano sa tingin mo, tastasin ba to'?" (while i was pointing to the inner lining)
she took the item from me, looked at it, and said;

"medyo sir, kasi...", wala na ako maintindihan sa sinasabi nya nung mapatingin ako sa super bebe na dumaan sa harap namen.. after five seconds, my "thought bubble" snapped!.. balik tayo kay ate sales lady..

"ah ganon poh ba? so ano sa tingin mo?", i asked.
"kayo sir..", she replied immediately.

not quite satisfied with her answer, i walked towards to the counter carrying the shoes with the bag anyway. keeping the thought of "i need a bag right now" winning the battles in my head. after a short pause, a little sigh, i now turn to the cashier, smiled and said hello. i handed over the items. i saw her remove the security pin (of the items) and punched it in. i heard two "beeps", but when i looked at the total amount, it was only for the shoes. quite knowing whats happening, i keep my mouth shut, and just pulled an amount of money from my wallet based on the total price i saw. i handed over the money. while repeatedly tapping the loyalty card at the desk, waiting for her to request for it (the card), i also, "partially", wait for her or her checker to mention that the amount of the bag amounted P0.00 instead of P599.75 after reading the barcode. a little bit of smile zipped out from me as i struggle to still keep myself from saying anything. anything!! fingers crossed, she now gave me the ("paid") items (haha), my loyalty card, and my change (ayos ah!), then said, "thank you sir!". when i heard that from her, i wanted to release another copied line from a radio jock, "nnnoooo, thank youuuuuu..", but of course i managed not to say so. instead i gave her a "sweet smile" (yung tamang pa-cute ba!). still not saying anything (malapit na mapanis laway ko. eeww.), a relaxed walk while still looking around, a poker face, i finally collected my "exit momentum".

out the doorway.

walked away from the store..

a little bit more...

...

then i found myself with a big smile, wanting to laugh my heart out while walking quite fast (still pressured?). i went to the department store first to buy shoe padding, and something funny happened there, quite "parental guidance", but maybe i'll tell you about that later. then i ride the fx going home. at home i told my older, and my younger sister who worked before for a competitor of the crime scene, (cough!), i mean the boutique, of what happened, and how i got the bag for free. but i got reactions such as;

"hoy badong kawawa naman un kahera, masho-short un!"

"naku hayaan mo na, kasalanan nya un!"

so i tried to explain to them my theory, based from what i know, that the cashier won't be charged. but just in case i'm wrong, i promised them, and myself, that i'll make a "notary to the public" through blog, just to lessen the guilt (hehe).

no i won't go back there and pay for it.^^

in my head, it's not my fault that the bar code has no amount, but i don't see any reasons i should be proud of what i did (of not saying there's something wrong to cashier).

but hey! i wonder why am i still smiling here at the train while writing this? hhhmmm.. looking at the heading of the newspaper here, let me ask, for you, the best things in life are..........?


chill. (^^,)

hhhmm... now what?...

i promised myself that i won't blog until i have a new work (how irrational of me).. we'll now that i have one again, after being a bummer for 5 days, ano na? alam! ^^

ayun! txbk..

gcng pa rn!

after the gig earlier, dpt ngaun on the way na kame ng mga offcem8s q to pinatubo!(para magpalunod sa lahar!!lol), para wla lng, hike-hike lng up to the crater and back.. d q pa natry yata un e.. d sana aq matutulog at direstso lakwatsa ng bonggang bongga! e kaso basa dw un mga trail e.. delikado dw para s mga hikers.. re-scheduled yta to nxt wik.. ayan sa sobrang lakas q sa ulan, umulan ng bonggang bongga, at umabot s hiking site!! e kaso sa nxt wik rn na rescheduled un swimming namin ng mga computer shop buddies q. ginamit kc un isa sa dalawang van n dpt gagamitin namen. bahala na si batman! kung san mas masaya n lng uli!! ^^

un gig naman kanina, i may say disapointed aq. since college, sa first band q, gs2ng gs2 n kasi namen tumugtog dun since maraming mga sumikat na banda na tumugtog at nadiscover dun.. at maganda daw dun! kaso ngaun, pagkatapos ng tugtog, ok lng, e kaso ang sagwa ng sound system e. un lng ang dahilan q, pero un na rin ang lhat ng magiging dahilan q rin kung baket ayw q na rin cgro tumugtog dun. kung discovery lng dn ang paguusapan ok lng cgro na hnd kame, ksi tumutugtog kame(or aq) dahil sa music, music, at music. expression through music. ngaun, hnd q naman naenjoy music dun kc sagwa ng sound system e. 1sang medyo technical musician term e un monitor, wala silang monitor para sa tumutugtog! kaya wala kameng marinig sa ginagawa namen! amf! (monitor ang twg dun speaker sa "harap" "stage" na "nakaharap" sa "stage", para marinig ng musician or singer un music nila, para matimpla nila kung ok na o hnd pa). or cge, i'll take back some, tugtugtog uli me dun, pero d na siguro me mageexpect ng sobra. tamang tugtog/hangout-hangout lng.. *wink*

pero overall, masaya naman ang gig, c/o 8daysaweekproduction, naks! maayos ang mga lineup ng banda, at eto pa, hiniram ng bahista ng prophets of memories ang bass guitar q!(fans nila aq e) but wait, there's more!!! next gig! tutugtog na uli sila, ehem, ayw q sabihin kung sino! wwweeeeeeeeeee!! makikita q na rin siguro kung ano pinagkaiba ng tugtog namin since nung binuo namin 2ng band kelan lng... sila kasi un banda na natandaan q since nung unang gig q sa band q ngaun, na pwde q gamitin as basis ng progress..

abangan!^^

oo nga pala, ngaun q lng din gnwa 2, 2 gigs in one week! ayos! mukhang mauubos agad ang leave q sa opis kung ganito ng ganito. pero may plan na me kung pano mag-adjust..

abangan! uli!^^

rock hard! (8days term)

Peripheral Vision

Yesterday, 7am is the calltime for our company outing. At naalala ko, I still have the CD file that needed to be delivered to the client, from which I OT'd till 12am (same date). Grabe patayan un ah! So kelangan pa muna magtrabaho, and ask the driver of the van i'm assigned to, to go to the client's office first, and since kasama ung isang messenger namin, sya ang nagabot sa guard. Ay oo nga pala, yun ang tipo ng kliyente na nagpapa-revise up to the last minute ng deadline (tae. alam nyo na siguro kung sino kayo).

On the way to the resort in Pansol, Laguna. Paglabas ng SSH, since may motion sickness ako, naramdaman ko na ang pagkahilo. Kaso nagtataka ako, malapit lang naman ang biyahe, at ok naman ang aircon at smell ng van, normally kaya ko naman na i-endure yung ganon ngaun. Is it the the "puyat" from OT, or is it because I was on the backseat of the vehicle na sobrang ma-kalog? So natulog na lang ako, and saved by the bell, nakarating na kame sa resort. Since natural "hot spring" cya, kahit daytime e, mainit ang tubig (badtrip). Pero buti na lang may "pangpa-lubag-loob" ang pool na yon, dahil nanalo kame kagabi sa sa "pool soccer/basketball" game namin! 10 to 4 yata ang ending score! Haha! Tambak! Ayos! Mahirap nga lang mag-pwersa ng galaw kase meron kaming kakampi at kalaban na babae. Sa huli, wala naman akong nadale(sa pagkakaalam ko), kung meron man eh, "apir!". Sori naman!

Sa mga kakampi (team 2); Wham (power forward/malalim side), Paul (shooting guard/hari ng babaw side), Ruth at Mamu Tere (goalers/harassers), Ryder (center/import/tanker/MVP), at saken (point guard/pa-poging kamote); nice team play mga tol!

Sa mga kalaban (team 1); Kulas (shooting guard/boy sipa), Ed (power forward/boy kalmot), ruel (gwardia sibil), Fae (rebounder/elbow girl), Raizel (guard/aggressive splasher) Marian (goaler na palaging naiipit); nice game sa inyo.

Sa mga miyembro ng committee; Sir Lawin, Sir Randy, Ate susan; okei!

Good game (GG) sa lahat! Alam ko nag-enjoy din kayo tulad ko, although masakit ang buong katawan. At malamang tulog kayo sa mga oras na ito, at naghihilik pa dahil sa pagod! Ahaha!

By 11:30am earlier, we had to leave the resort, and eventually go for some touring/sight seeing/strolling/picture-picture in Los Baños (LB), c/o tourist guide Kulas. From Magnetic hill (sir randy optical illusion lang un pramis!), to Center for Arts High School, to Luntiang Bathala, na sinasabi nila na hindi daw pwede magpakasal dun kasi walang sacramento un (oooowwwsss!), at BTW, dun din daw nag-bisikleta si Regine sa movie nila ni Aga. From there, we went to the University of the Philippines, Los Baños (UPLB), seen the fertility three na amoy chlorox, had lunch in Rice Reasearch Complex, patakas feeding of the fish where there's a sign board that reads "Do not Feed the Fish", and lastly to DTRI (na akala namen T3), and sa bilihan ng pasalubong sa tapat ng Los Baños Water Station. During the tour, naisip ko tuloy na gusto ko sana pag-aralin ang mga magiging anak ko sa Center of Arts at UPLB.

Going back home, I end up in Market Market in Taguig (Roni, thanks for the lift). Since we passed by Cabuyao, Laguna, during the trip, I thought about the house that I bought in that province. Sakto sa Market Market lang nagtatrabo ang isa sa mga College tropa ko na nag-convince sa saken na bumili rin ng bahay dun tulad nya. Kaka-promote lang pala niya into Supervisor sa Department Store (oist jimmy, congratz uli!). So napagusapan na namin ang mga plano dun, kasama na rin ang tungkol sa iba pang mga ka-tropa. But co-incidentally, gusto na rin nya humanap ng ibang work (nak ng teteng!). Pero nakarelate talaga ako ng husto nang sinabi nya na, "Masyado malaki ang responsibilidad na hindi naman akma sa sweldo. At ayoko na rin ng trabahong masyadong ginagamit ang isip, kasi hindi naman consistent ang utak ng tao. Isang araw ang galing-galing mo, next day kamote ka!". May sense naman diba? Malufet ang Peripheral Vision ko, at lalo na, na kanina ko lang na-appreciate ng husto ang galing na yun and see such "beauty". Naks! Pero pagdating sa figurative na Peripheral Vision, good thing I have buddies to take care of that for me. Pinapaala nila saken ang iba pang mga detalye (sa gilid ko) ng buhay, habang nakatuon pa ako sa iba pang mga bagay-bagay.

At sa taas, thank you for surrounding me with such good souls.

Fail!

Pero hindi rin!

Pagkatapos hindi gumana ng second hand electric bass na nabili ko from a friend of a friend, nangamote sa bagbaba at pagakyat ng stage at manghiram ng bass sa ibang banda kagabi, haha, ayos! Pinahiram saken ang five string bass! Yun nga lang, nakatahi ang strap, customized for it's owner. Since medyo payat sya kesa saken, hapit ang dating nang pagkakayakap ng gitara sken, at mataas ang hawak ko sa leeg ng gitara.. Ok pa rin yun! The show must go on! Eto pa malufet, syempre may kumukuha ng picture at video, isiping mo, naka-five string si Elmo! For the first time! Kahit naubos ang sampung minuto namin sa stage kaka-set-up, pinayagan pa rin kame ng production na kumanta ng tatlong kanta! (thanks Ice!) Ayos! Sa ngayon, nakatulog na ako, at naayos na ang bass ko. Tae, may nataggal lang pala na isang wire sa loob (Dodo, salamat sa pag-solder).

All-in-all, maayos ang naging takbo ng gig. Masaya naman lahat ng mga guest at tropa namen.

Eto naman na ang kasunod ngayon. Kelangan naman namen ngayon mag step-up..

Sa banda, sa gitara, sa sarili... Isa lang ang naiisip kong kailangan pa namen ma-improve. Although 3.0 lang ang nakuha ko ng college dito e, sa tingin ko ok lng to kase katulong ko naman ang mga tropa...

Chemistry.

damn...

just when you thought you had a great weekend.

monday. 3:25am. leaving the computer monitor and the light on. back-pack lying on my feet. blankly staring at the ceiling. complete thoughts of the past, recent events, together with the dream the other night, unexplained, just suddenly strucked me..

another wave of images flash...

and another question mark...

damn...

...

regret...

shout-out

So halos kaka-gising ko lang at maaga ang pasok ko mamaya. Good luck!Ok lang siguro, masaya naman kagabi. At eto ang mga naglalaro sa utak ko;

- 8 days a week production, astig kayo! Happy first anniversary! Keep the music flowing into your blood veins.

- ice, di ko sasabihin kung sino may crush sau! wahaha!

- 9 mile, nagustuhan namin tumugtog sa inu! malufet ang place nu, at ang daming bebe!(ayun un e!)

- prophets of memory, ok ang tugtugan nu! kita-kita uli tau! abangan namin album nu!

- prophets of memory lead guitarist, paarbor naman ng destroyer effects mu!(asa)

- the bayseeks, sana makita namin uli kayo sa "Dayo"! Di namin alam kung ngconfirm kau e. Crush q bassist nu!

- the bayseeks bassist, pa-surplus ka naman! Magturuan tau mag-bass! ahaha! kaso tulad ng iba pang mga crush q, di kita pwede kataluhin.(taena palagi na lang aq fighting the force of nature). lagi na lang may kung ano anong balakid. buhay nga naman ng kamote.

- the bayseeks drummer, kelan ba kau mgbe-break ng bassist nu?

- 5th day mystery, taena nu! isang praktis q pa lang kau nakakasama, sinalang nu na agad aq sa tugtugan! Pare-pareho tuloy tau sumablay! ahaha! ok lng, mukhang hindi naman halata. at may mga fans na yata tau.

- Clark(5th day mystery drummer), goodluck pare! Basta aasahan namin pagbalik mu! Gaya ng sabi q, siguraduhin mu lang na maipapasa mu na sa june ang nursing exam. (♦♫ scratch music effects ♫♫, ♫ tika lang, tika tika tika lang, tika lang ♫)

- Dodo(5th day mystery from rythym guitar to drums), taena ayusin mu palo mu! Kelangan naten galingan sa anniv ng 8 days.

- Chad(vocals), Neo(lead), ok lang yun mga tol! Karapatan ang tawag dun! ^^

- Ryan(rythym), hugutin mu na yan. Tugtugan na.

- Almuranas, ok ang tugtog nu nga pala last week. kaso pano kaya kapag umalis lead-ista nu?

- Brew-iw, ok lang. ay oo nga pala, mababa ang ceiling nu sa second level, sumakit mata q sa usok ng yosi.

- Brew-iw undergrounders, part lang din kau ng underground. kung naiintindihan nu ibig namin sabihin.

- Ale sa bus na tumabi saken, ok ka lang? Wak mu naman gamitin un pangalan ng nasa taas. At oo, nagsimba aq nung friday, at meron aqng ballpen! Oo nga pala, mga limang minuto ka na nasa cubao bago bumaba. Parang ewan lang. Dapat pala hindi q sinabi kung nasan na. mga tol, wak daw kau maingay! wahaha! peace!

- manong na pumalit, salamat sa direksyon.

- Jollibee heart center, init sa store nu!

- manang sa tapat ng jollibee, salamat sa balut!

- at sa sarili ko, naipahinga mu na un mga daliri mo ngaung araw, praktis na uli. Eksakto ang mga nangyayari, mukhang oras na para tanggalin ang mga kalawang sa kamay mu. Naririnig mu na ba uli ang metronome? Batong-bato ka na ba? Rock-rockan na! ^^

♫♫ Come-on!♫♫("wake up" by "rage against the machine","the matrix" OST playing on the background)

hhhmmm....

One of my "labo-labo" goals for this february was to create a song or a poem atleast about that four letter word that we call "LOVE" (love song for no one amf!). But I just suddenly lost inspiration or maybe "nangamote" lang talaga ako. I was searching google for something that i needed here at work and I stumble on this particular site(blog) that's so unrelated to what I searched for. Most probably many people already read this story. And I believe the author just copied this story from somewhere else and just share it. I'll do just the same...




An Island of FEELINGS


Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: HAPPINESS, SADNESS, and all of the others including LOVE.

One day it was announced to the ‘feelings’ that the island would sink, so all repaired their boats and left. LOVE was the only one who stayed. LOVE wanted to persevere until the last possible moment. When the island was almost sinking, LOVE decided to ask for help. RICHNESS was passing by in a grand boat.LOVE said, “RICHNESS, can you take me with you?” RICHNESS answered, “No I can’t….there is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place for you here.”

LOVE decided to ask VANITY who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel, “VANITY, please help me!”“I can’t help you LOVE, You are all wet and might damage my boat,” VANITY answered.

SADNESS was close by, so LOVE asked for help, “SADNESS let me go with you.”“Oh…LOVE, I am so sad that I need to be my myself!”

HAPPINESS passed by too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when LOVE called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, “Come LOVE, I will take you.” LOVE felt so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgot to ask the elder’s name. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way.LOVE, realizing how much he owed the elder, asked KNOWLEDGE, another elder, “Who helped me?”

“It was TIME”, KNOWLEDGE answered. “TIME?” asked LOVE. “But why did TIME help me?” KNOWLEDGE smiled with deep wisdom and answered, “Because only TIME is capable of understanding how great LOVE is.”

fall out valentines?

And yes it's the day of hearts again..

And what did you say again, you are at work right now? Yes i'm spending my valentine morning here in the office, working("working", yeah right!). It's ok because last night I ended up going to Araneta for the concert of "Fall Out Boy".(Fae, thanks for the invitation!Lufet!^^). I remembered when i'm a personnel in the main warehouse of mercury drug, where i used to work there as a traffic officer and have the authority to operate the paging and sound system of the whole warehouse. I played "Sugar we're going down" for the first time while tuned to NU107 from fm radio. Good thing I have buddies there that are in-the-know of what are the new bands to listen to, and fall out boy was one of them at that time. And hey, they liked my music for that afternoon. I liked FOB the first time they got out, but suddenly they changed their genre of music from adult-alternative to, I think pop, for the reason I don't know. Then i stopped listening to them. So last night I thought I'd be just listening for their new music(pop) and just enjoy, next thing i knew, I was singing along because they played songs from their old albums. Yeah bah!(^^,) I heard Nica said(a friend of a friend) after the concert, "tatlo lang ung kinanta nila from their new album", and I thought, "aaaa, kaya pala nakasabay aq". Saya!

Balik sa valentines day @ work, I should be getting out here soon, and find my Winona.
^^

Wala lang.

Kumalog ang jeep. Naramdaman ko na ang senyales na malapit na akong bumaba. Inangat ang ulo mula sa bag na nakapatong sa dalawang tuhod. Dinilat ang mga mata. Tumingin diretso sa harap at inilagan ng tingin ang nasa harap na pasahero, tinignan ang kalsada, ok! Tumingin sa likod, ok! Tumingin sa kaliwa nakita ang kasunod na jeep, at nakita ng malaking board nito sa taas, "Katas ng Saudi". Tumingin sa kanan habang inilagan ang tingin ng driver mula sa kanyang rear-view mirror(oi manong nagbayad ako ha!), nakita ang crossroad, ok! Pwede na. Sinamantala ang nakahintong trapiko.

Elmor: Kuya saglit lang po!

Narinig ang aking senyales, bumaba ang lakaki na nasa tabi ng pinto na kanina pa nagdadalawang isip na bumaba, na kanina pa nakahakbang ang kaliwang paa sa unang baitang ng hagdan. Bumaba siya. Sunod na ako. Pagbaba..

Elmor: Hayz!

Bagsak ang balikat. Tumigil ng dalawang segundo para tumingin sa paligid(at magpapogi! jowk!). Isinukbit ang kanang strap ng back-pack sa kanang balikat. Tumingin sa kanan, tumawid. Lakad. Lakad. Nakita ang telebisyon mula sa isang electronics shop, nakabukas. Tumigil. Ang ganda ng artista na yon ah! Inalis ang tingin sa T.V.. Tumingin sa daan. Naglakad habang isinasabit ang kaliwang strap ng back-pack sa kaliwang balikat. Naglakad.
Pagdating sa kabilang kanto, sa ilalim ng "Arko", gilid ng daan, nagtitipon ang mga tao. Meron sa kanila ang may hawak na kandila, un iba nakasindi at ung iba hindi. Yung ibang tao, "Uzi". Tumingin ako sa kabilang kalsada, sa ilalim ng "Arko", sa gilid ng daan, ganun din. Pero sa pagkakataong ito, may "bebe"! Kaso ang layo. "Dedma" na lang. Tumuloy ako sa gitna ng kalsada, maluwag. May tumawag sa gilid..

Tita Jean: Manedyer!
Elmor: Ow? Sakto! Ano meron?
Tita Jean: "Prosisyon"! Tagal nga e! Sama kame.
Elmor: Aaaa... Sige, dito na me!
Tita Jean: Ok, sige!

Lakad. Lakad. Pangatlong kanto, tumingin sa mga tropa sa harap. Bumagal ang lakad. Namulsa(dalawang kamay). Nagpapogi ng lakad. Ilang hakbang pa..

Millard: Hi Elmo! (lumapit, at payakap sa kaliwang braso ko)
Elmor: So ano, bukas, tuloy? (ngumiti habang tinanggal ang kaliwang kamay mula sa kaliwang bulsa upang pasimpleng makawala ang braso sa yakap)
Millard: Di ko sigurado. Wala akong pamasahe e! Sama ka ngayon!
Elmor: San? (nakawala na, at bumalik sa pamumulsa)
Millard: Sa "Pinagbuhatan", dadayo. Kasama ako sa lalaban.
Elmor: Aaaa.. Ganon? Dito na lang ako. Mamaya sabihin mo saken kung sigurado ka ha!
Millard: Ah ok! Pahiram limang piso... sige na!
Elmor: Hiram to ha! (asa ka pa! malayo sa katotohanan ang ganyan!)
Pompi: Clan Lord! Sama ka! (pasingit na sigaw)
Elmor: Hinde sige ok lang ako dito..

Ngumiti. Tumalikod. Naglakad. Pumasok sa iskinita. Medyo madilim.
Nakayuko. Lakad. May pasalubong na naglalakad..

Taurus: Fafs! Elms!
Elmor: Ow! Dadayo sila ha! (hindi tumitigil sa paglalakad)
Taurus: Oo nga e. Sama nga ako e! (papalayo na ang boses)
Elmor: mmmmm...

Lakad. May kasalubong uli..

Elmor: May laban sila ngayon sa pinagbuhatan ah! (hindi pa rin tumitigil sa paglalakad)
Jade: Ganon? Tignan ko. (palayo na rin ang boses)

Lakad. Liko. Lakad. Nakarinig ng kanta sa dinaanang bahay..

(radio): "sabihin mo na... kung babalik ka pa.. para di na maghintay..."

Napamura sa sarili, "taena emo na naman".
Lakad. Liko. Lakad...
Binuksan ang gate. Pumasok. Napansin na may humahabol sa pagpasok. Habang sinasara ang gate..

Elmor: Hi Bubbles!
Bubbles: Meow!

Bakit nga ba?

Earlier in my workstation at the office, an officemate, who is proud to be an AE, had to borrow my thumbdrive to transfer some files from her laptop to our IT support's PC which is infront of my desk. She plugged my thumbdrive and saw it named "kAm0TE". Out of curiosity, and since it was one of my popular nickname in the office, she asked me, "baket kamote? ha elmor?!"

Hhhhmmmm... HHHHHmmmm...
aaaaa....
....
hhhmm..

Baket nga ba?! Parang ngaun ko lang naisip na na-dedma ko sya kanina ng mga ilang segundo habang nangyayari sa isip ko yang mga letra at tuldok na yan(sorry addie :P).Everybody have had a "kamote moment". It could be anything. For example, when a student doesn't studies his lesson well and you see him scratch his head during exams, you'll know his already having his own, fresh na fresh, straight-off-the grill, mainit-init pa, "kamote moment". Or if i'm wrong, the answer is "clear", no dandruff!, mag memo-plus gold ka na!(maybe i should get paid for these advertisment?! nah!). As this thought keeps on revolving inside my head in guadalupe on my way home, i accidentaly stepped on a big.....wait for it... big trash pan! The next thing I know, an avalanche of garbage splashed up to the back of my knees, staining my pants. Anak ng tinapa, kamote moment na naman on the spot, at parang tinapa rin yata yung isa sa mga nakita ko na tumalsik sa paa ko! Anyway, when I was in gradeschool, "nangangamote" rin ako sa exam, pero hindi tulad ng "pangangamote" ko kapag mga kaklase kong babae na ang magsimulang mang-asar. For some unknown reasons, since bata, pwede kang "makipag-suntukan" kahit sa mga babae, at panigurado papalagan ka rin nila! Kung su-swertehin ka pa ng konti, e baka ikaw pa ang magulpi nya! Pero parang hindi ko trip un. I remembered kapag nagsusumbong ako sa parents, tito, at tita ko,(loser, sumbungero! haha!) they would say to me, "Halikan mo! Krass ka lang nun!", Ayos un ah! Kaso lang, baka mas malufet pa ang makuha kong jackpot kapag ginawa ko un e! So hindi ko na rin tinangka.(ok lang un, makaka-score ka naman!). At isa pa, sa isip-isip ko, ok ka lang?! Suntukan?! Crush?! haller!!?.

Pause...

(on the phone calling to a radio station)
-aahhhmm.. hello?
-yes, hello!
-aaaa, pwede po bang bumati?
-sure! go ahead!
-hhhhmmm, binabati ko po lahat ng mga naging classmate ko nung elementary especially to Kristine, Mercedes, at ung isa pa na sarap-to-the-bones mang-asar! Hello poh sa inyong lahat! oopppsss... aaaaaaaaa... can i pass the phone?(haha! old school!)(uy, literal un ah!)

Continuation...

Early highschool, nag-improve ang pangangamote ko! Parang hindi ko alam kung maganda un o hindi ah! Well, all i can say is, malakas talaga manghiya ang mga babae! amf! A basta, lahat tayo may mga kamote moments! Pero yun din ang saya nun e! Atleast hindi ka rin perfect! Atleast alam mong tao ka! Atleast alam mong nabubuhay ka! Sarap kaya non! Parang kanta..
(*singing*)
"yeah you bleed just to know you're alive! and I dont want the...."
....Ok tama na! Napansin ko lang, bakit ang-"emo" ng dating kapag ikaw ang kumakanta?Ewan ko sayo. Bahala ka mag-isip.(nice ric!).

When the time comes that you'll be leaving this world, when you're already in heaven, or hell, or kahit saan, o kung ano man ang paniniwala mo... Pwede mong sabihin, na sa sarili mo, minsan may isang kamote...

Fill in the blanks;

This coming thursday there will be a training(btw, every thursday and just started last week) in our office themed "undepartmentalized creativity". I have always liked to think like this, but i realized i'm not asking this myself anymore recently. And now, i'm sensing "or" hope a lot of this will "come out"(and oh! I remember! "off my head"!) on these coming days. Anyway here it goes...

"What if ____________?"

nosi balasi?

1. mali naman un e. dapat, "alisabonis". pagbigyan, new year naman.
2. hindi pa rin ako makatulog.
3. ano ibig sabihin ng salitang "kalayaan"?
4. nakakainis hindi ako makapagpasaway(or simply be the kamote i am). hindi tuloy ako makadiskarte. konting bwelo lng.
5. kahit makapagbigay lang ng opinion pwede na.
6. everyone make mistakes, why can't i?
7. no room for errors. eksakto may nadaanan ako kanina, "room for rent".
8. o hindi ko lang talaga kilala sarili ko? o un nasa paligid ko?
9. nosi balasi?
10. sino ba u?
11. txbk.