I woke up at 5:30pm today with only about four hours of sleep, and I think I’ll be just fine. I slept once I came home from work, and it’s really scorching hot. But that’s so me, if I’m sleepy I sleep, but if I’m not, we’ll then I do not. Life is simple right?
I’ve been busy lately, and I’ve been in swimming twice last week, with just a day interval. One is a team building event from work, and the other one with friends. There is just one thing that’s stressing me out lately, “alak” (liquor). My body really can’t stand any sort of liquor, or anything that has alcohol content. And that’s also keeping me busy lately, battling with liquor. I think the worst case happened weeks ago wherein after I decided to drink that freaking “red horse beer” without holding back, I literally almost can’t remember a thing within that time frame. I even can’t remember how I got home. I just have image flashes on my head, and few scenes just like the movies. But not as harsh as how my friends would describe how it happened. They told me that I had been in a fight, but that is so unlikely. Yeah, I had my right eye sore, but later I realized, it’s just because of dirt or just because of the hot weather. But I think that is not the first time it happened. Since college, me and my classmates, whenever we plan on drinking, we plan it so we can sleep afterwards and rest at the comfort of the house of any one of us. I remember a scene in my head that one time, one of our classmates almost died from falling off the roof top because of shouting while giving the airplane that passes by a “dirty finger”. There is also a scene where we are all puking at the same time to a well of pig shit (eeewww, gross!). And I can also remember a time where we are in a room that we call BBB (big brown box), lights are out already, but I can see silhouettes of objects flying around because of throwing, and we are actually messing the whole place up, but we are not fighting. Those are the few things I can hardly remember because of liquor during college, but after school is a different story. Conclusion: I think I’m losing battles against liquor, but winning the war against mediocrity. It’s just “yes” or “no”. I really can’t drink, so I won’t force myself anymore. Now it’s just a matter of how I handle my convictions about my decision.
That’s just few of the things that’s in my mind right now here in my room, I mean, it’s not my room, but this is the place at the house where the computer is, and this is where I spend almost all of my time when at home. And I really appreciate my work schedule right now. Yes it’s just now that I’m feeling the effects of not sleeping in night time, everyday. But I’m fine with it because I can go to work at night, and still can also make time to do the things I need or want to do at day time, any day. But of course, proper scheduling and time management skills are needed on this one.
Right now, I feel good. It’s like I can do anything, but nothing at the same time. I can listen to music or to my favorite radio shows, watch TV, watch DVD’s, or watch series/anime. I can check on my social virtual life. Or I can also make “tambay” (hangout) with friends just outside. Or I can play DOTA or any game that I like. I can read books, write something or even draw something. I can play my guitar, practice. I even already organized my music sheets, but I haven’t backed up my computer files yet, and it’s been months already and I’m so running out of disk space, as in I’m down to MB (megabyte) already! Haha! But still that’s me, laziness kicking in.
Aaaaahhhhh freeee tiiimmmee… But be ready, more thoughts coming in…
Relax. Chill.. ^^
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